Wednesday, April 4, 2012
The End is Tomorrow
For the most part, I've been doing pretty well the last month or so. I've dealt with it and gotten over it until he called me on Monday morning asking where did it all go wrong.
I told him, what I've been trying to tell him for three years. He told me he wants to have that whole wife, family, and white picket fence dream. According to him, I destroyed that dream as he thought I was the one.
How dare he put that blame on me as though it's my fault for finally giving up and leaving before the abuse went from verbal threats to physical hits.
I tried to explain to him that no woman will ever last with him if he keeps treating them as disposable. Nobody wants to be in a relationship where they feel that the other person doesn't love them and never will.
Right now, I feel a lot of resentment. There is a lot that no one knows. Words that were said, pains that tore through the heart, all because of his inability to love both his daughter and his wife.
Tomorrow that resentment will end and that chapter of my life will fully close. I look forward to finding someone else. Someone who would love me even when it is inconvenient for him.